Tag Archives: dysfunctional family

Night Owl

November 17, 2014


night owl

I’m most naturally a night owl although, it isn’t really possible to entertain such hours when you have a family life. Sleepless in Colorado However, I have watched the sun come up more often than not over these past couple of months. It is much easier to maintain a regular schedule when you have children […]

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What We Learn About Ourselves

October 25, 2013


What We Learn About Ourselves

As a teenager and young adult I didn’t know how to work through conflict. I was young, dumb and scared to death. The only way I knew of resolving conflict was modeled to me in extremes. If there was conflict, or a difference of opinion even, it meant that eventually someone would get beat, jailed, […]

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September 28, 2013



The emotion I have lived around the most is anger. It may be what I know best. I grew up in a home full of it, my real family has mastered it, the types of people and cases I have been involved with are rooted in it, and nearly all of my past relationships have […]

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May 4, 2013



Estimated read time:  25 minutes Shattered Part 1 “Well, you could just go to one of those runaway shelters for teens,” she offers neutrally, as if just making a simple weather observation on a beautiful day. “What!?” I practically scream. “Another shelter? Mom, are you serious!? What the hell’s wrong with you?” I can’t calm […]

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As If Being Abused Isn’t Enough

December 4, 2012


self esteem

…we abuse ourselves. Why did I continue to seek love and approval from family members and partners who treated me so bad? It has taken me a long time to understand, because it’s not as if the opinions of people like that should even matter. Why would I care about what someone with no morals […]

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About This Website

April 18, 2012


Please click on the links to learn what this site is about. I Am Not A Victim, I Am A Survivor! ~ First and foremost, I will have you know that I am a survivor and a Christian. Secondly, I will share that I have been a victim of most types of abuse: childhood abuse, emotional abuse, physical abuse, […]

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And Yet, I Love

February 18, 2012


Insecure… as a little girl. I love mommy and daddy, I silently cry As I shake and tremble throughout the night Always praying they will hold me tight. Naked images all around Sex in my home is something foul It makes a grown man big and proud To use his women and throw them around. […]

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Why Must We Suffer?

December 1, 2011


The Bible is chucked full of so many verses which instruct us to give Him thanks and praise at ALL times, and yes my friends, that means even during times of suffering. God is good and never changing, which makes Him worthy of our praise no matter what and in every circumstance. Did I lose […]

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I Am Not A Victim, I Am A Survivor!

November 22, 2011


shatter the silence

First and foremost, I will have you know that I am a survivor and a Christian. Secondly, I will share that I have been a victim of most types of abuse: childhood abuse, emotional abuse, physical abuse, sexual abuse, spouse abuse, religious abuse, criminal abuse and even self abuse. The icing on the cake was being […]

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November 22, 2011



Estimated read time: 15 minutes (based upon true events)    Molested Part 1 “They are such a nice foster family, Jess, and they’re excited you’re coming,” my social worker tries to reassure me. “They live on the lake and go fishing off their dock most evenings, and I just know how much you’ll love that!” […]

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