The topic of faith has come up to me so many times this past week, I feel it deserves a few words. Most often I am asked, or the thoughts pondered around are, “How could you still have faith after all you’ve been through?”
Let me tell you, there was a time when I was younger that I blamed God for everything. I never understood how a loving God could allow such evil to exist. If He really love me, then why wouldn’t He protect me? If He was all knowing and powerful, then why didn’t He do something to help? It has taken many, many trials for me to begin to understand any of this.
I am not any different than you, my friend. We each have our stories to tell and while our paths or struggles may be different, pain is pain and we can relate.
To have faith or to love is a choice. To forgive is a choice. I might not always feel like loving, forgiving or having faith, but I choose to because God asks me to and I choose to believe God’s Word over man’s. It has taken most of my life to understand this, because I grew up thinking my feelings should dictate my actions or that they were one in the same, but they most certainly are not. God didn’t do these things to me ~ man did. Man made a choice to treat me this way. I then have choice in how I respond.
God doesn’t ask me to feel a certain way. He asks me instead to trust Him and choose to act a certain way (regardless of my feelings) because that’s what grace, mercy and forgiveness are all about. Those things are undeserved gifts, so they require a choice to give and to receive.
My feelings will waiver according to circumstance ~
May I not allow my faith to do the same!
Finally, I believe the greatest gift God gave us is our freewill. He cannot contradict Himself so He will never make any of us do something that is against our will, and at the end of the day… I am most grateful for this gift. I rest in mind and soul with complete assurance that my relationship with Jesus is purely my choice and of my heart. It is a two way street, a real relationship, and I am NOT a mere puppet who’s Master controls her by a set of strings!
- Faith and its Result (lifereference.wordpress.com)