A Victim’s Love

My Knight in shining armor, so quick to the rescue
He speaks the perfect words – he can’t be superficial.

No fault does he have that I’m willing to see
Nothing I won’t excuse or pretend not to believe.

For, I feel so empty until he appears
Inside I am lost with many fears.

Too good to be true, he fulfills every need
I forgive all the lies and deny any warning.

Never to believe I deserve any good
I accept imitations
of the (only) love I’ve understood.

We settle down, a pretend smile on my lips
His manipulation and control, I still dismiss.

He beats me, rapes me and claims it’s my fault
He is sorry and loves me, he owns me no doubt.        

I hide and lie about the pain he inflicts
He says I’m not worthy, I must be punished.

Guilt, shame and fear – I pretend not to know
That it really is my choice… if I stay or if I go.

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7 Comments on “A Victim’s Love”

  1. Steven Sawyer Says:

    Wonderful words of encouragement from the experiences in your heart. God bless.


  2. worshipandswag Says:

    It’s nice to have you back, Jessie! :)



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