So, yesterday (Sunday) was my first time out hiking since we got here and of course, I overdid it. I couldn’t just ease myself back into it, but had to go full board (with my camera pack and all) for about 6 hours. No wonder my body’s been screaming and can’t hardly move today! It’s all good though and I couldn’t be happier :) I even crawled under some bridges to explore uncharted territory. However, not having hiking boots yet, left me with a big gash and bruise on my upper leg, and a good scratch along my upper arm. That’s OK though, but there’s no avoiding a trip to Gander mountain soon if I want to keep going out. I used to go hiking every single day with camera in hand, so it’s about time I get back at it while the weather’s still nice.
Being out and about in mother nature is where I’ve always felt the closest to God. I always carry a pad and pen in my camera bag as well, because I usually rest by a stream or waterfall and write. That’s what I planned on doing again yesterday, but I was having too much fun to stop. Either that or I just wasn’t ready to be still enough and listen to God again, lol.
Blessed by a Sermon
Church service was an incredible experience again. We had a guest pastor who’s been in prison multiple times I guess. It wasn’t enough that I nearly drown myself and my child in tears as we listened from our seats, but then my broken heart just came unglued as he prayed for me afterwards. The things this man prayed about… much of it was specific and could have only come from God. Talk about more and more confirmation! I’m beginning to feel covered in it, like it’s a security blanket. Well, maybe it’s not that warm and cozy yet, but my golly we’re getting close! That’s the Holy Spirit at work and instead of running away anymore, I’m soaking it up like a sponge, trying to let it sink in deep.
I also briefly spoke with one of our own pastor’s. When I confessed to feeling scared, she naturally asked me what I was scared of. I stood there thinking… and thinking… and finally replied, “That’s a good question. I guess I don’t know anymore.” Then she quoted the book of John and how God’s love casts out fear.
There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear, because fear has torment.
He who fears has not been perfected in love. (1 John 4:18, MKJV)
I had forgotten about that scripture too! And there’s that thing I need to learn again… to grasp even in the slightest way that He really does love me!
I asked Jesus, “How much do you love me?”
He replied, “This much” and He stretched out His arms and died.
Somehow, I know I’ll be seeing that pastor who came from prison again and I told him as much. His message contained so many different things that spoke to my heart including, how we are called to meet people where they’re at (something I’m always talking about too) but especially that it’s time.
It’s time to start moving forward and up again.
It’s time to be led by God rather than all this fear.
It’s time to be able to view God as my partner, rather than my adversary.
It’s time I get out of His way!
It’s time to finally learn how to view Him as both my Father and my husband (instead of chasing everything else.)
It’s time to rise up out of the ashes and allow God to do a work in me, because who knows how He’ll use me next!
Shifting just a bit ~ I read a beautiful quote once about how the great thing about turning 40 is that there’s nothing left to fear. I love that! I certainly feel like I’ve been through enough that there shouldn’t be anything on this earth to fear anymore. I can also remember times of being much closer to God where I could feel His love and presence a lot more, and it’s true…
The more God we have, the less fear we have.
So, I’ll try to get some of the hiking pics up on the photo blog soon and once again, I thank everyone for your continued financial support and prayers. I’ve received about half a dozen emails this past week too, so I’m still trying to respond to all of those. I appreciate and am loving the dialogue here people and it helps so much :) Thank you and hugs my friends!
- We Request A Special And Urgent Prayer – Sometimes, Even Our Pastors Need A Pastor And A Prayer (fggam.org)
- What is Life – Part 2 (growingyoungereachday.wordpress.com)
- Stretched To The Limit (jessiejeanine.com)
- We Get Up and Live (Dear Jessie) (dietrying999.wordpress.com)
- Dear Jessie (dietrying999.wordpress.com)
- Lonely In My Aloneness (jessiejeanine.com)