Yes, I am.
Humbled and Loved
Even in my absence during the last two months, the stats show you’ve continued to stop by regularly. Then surprisingly enough, my last post saying that I quit writing brought just as much traffic as the story Kidnapped once did. Instead of getting a bunch of comments here, I’ve been getting private emails and messages on Facebook and LinkedIn. And oh, my friends… I am so grateful for all of you!
I don’t really want to quit writing. To be honest, it was more of a cry for some support and encouragement than anything else I guess. I’ve been gone for too long, so much has been happening, and oh my goodness for the struggles…!
For the first time since being a teenager, I have truly felt hopeless and come the closest to giving up on life as I ever have. Normally, I am fueled by life’s challenges, but during the last couple of years I have seemed to grow so very tired.
I think my girl stated it beautifully yesterday when she encouraged me by saying, “It’s OK mom, we’ll fight and get through it, cause that’s what we do best!” I broke down in tears then (been doing a lot of that lately) and replied with “I know honey, I’m just really tired of having to be so good at it.”
“I am a SURVIVOR and I’m damn good at it.
One day, I’d like to learn how to LIVE again instead.”