I love who you pretended to be
An honorable man full of integrity.
You had me convinced and I believed
A web of lies spun into reality.
Charming and attentive, seemingly sincere
You became everything I needed
And wanted to hear
Until, my life knew nothing but fear.
The emotional abuse drove me insane
Claiming to love me as you cursed my name
I feel such a fool for believing you
My knight in armor – tarnished and skewed.
A pathological liar without remorse or shame
You pretend to be the victim as you hunt for your prey.
Finding amusement in other people’s pain
Using them like pawns in a malicious game.
No depth to your words – a shallow being
No feelings portrayed except anger and blame.
You mimic what you think is famed
And always speak the perfect things.
You seek out others just like me
With kind, forgiving hearts, serving many needs
Who aim to please and always believe
Those who are everything you will NEVER be.
You humiliate women for self preservation
You dominate and control without reservation.
You project what you hate and contradict your own thoughts
A chameleon you are without any heart.
With anger and shame you respond to critique
Resulting in rage from inward hate
YOUR own reflection is the object of affection
I am nothing to you, but a trophy of possession.
The strong silent type I dreamed you were
Was merely an illusion – a façade of one more human
Used to disguise and create confusion
As you sought a new victim to join your delusions.
Full of envy and preoccupied dreams
You fail to recognize what others see
A false sense of self – a counterfeit being
Disconnected from the truth and reality.
You hide behind intentional lies
Not possessing an ability to empathize
I trusted all of your scheming ways
Until just as quickly, you threw me away.
With a complete disregard for society’s rules
Nor, sense of obligation for what you should do
The liberties you take are a mistake
You never contribute unless you can gain.
So, the distinguished gentleman you falsely portrayed
Whose only objective is to manipulate and blame,
The one who taught me how to hate
And blinded me with endless pain,
You’ve been exposed for what you are:
You are a coward with no name!
Soul Seeds…
For the Psychopath, Sociopath, Antisocial, Narcissist and Malignant personalities…
“We have survived your hell and will not cover up for you anymore,
because there is too much freedom we experience in your absence.”
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Jessie Jeanine 
June 5, 2013 at 2:56 am
WOW! Jessie that’s brilliant writing. How do you do that?
You have to look at this post:
http://sharpword.wordpress.com/2013/04/30/narcissistic-abuse-video/
It has been a horror of a life in many ways for me / and often I have just stood with my face to the wall stunned at the memories I now see, as they were blocked off before. I stand numb and awed as I wonder, “GOD WHO AM I AND WHO WAS I SUPPOSED TO BE? Because I know now that the hell I survived until now was not your plan for me! Still I go on almost to scared to / yes often too too scared to look ahead, but for Gods mercy I wouldn’t dare to do it. Still I go on.
May 10, 2013 at 8:23 am
The coward you’ve written about reminds me of the one I am trying to flee from.
I never knew there were so many out there.
May 14, 2013 at 5:40 pm
I feel where you’re at and will be praying for your safety. I know it isn’t always possible to just ‘get up and leave’ for a variety of reasons, which only adds to the frustration and feelings of being trapped.
Sad to say, I think there are more of these personality types emerging with each generation, as society seems to support narcissistic tendencies more and more.
I appreciate your visit and please feel free to contact me anytime :)
May 3, 2013 at 8:36 am
Jessie, awesome poem and message! It takes a lot of strength to let those emotions loose from inside your heart and soul! God bless you always dear sister!
May 5, 2013 at 1:57 am
Yes, it can take a lot to release some of these things, but I’ve held too much of it inside for too long… In that sense, it is a relief, very healing and comes easily. For that I am grateful! Be well my friend :)
April 29, 2013 at 4:20 pm
Praise God for getting out of these type of situations! Thankful for Him seeing people through awful times like this and seeing the light of hope and peace afterward.
April 29, 2013 at 5:08 pm
Praising Him always!
April 29, 2013 at 3:48 pm
“Keep it real and keep it raw” may not be the popular approach as you say but it is truth, which trumps the popularity issue. Don’t stop exposing the lies with the light of truth!
Keep the Faith!
April 29, 2013 at 4:58 pm
THANK YOU! Always VERY grateful to get the support. I’ve never been one to care about the popularity issue – it is ALL about the truth, because only the truth can set us free :)
April 28, 2013 at 2:13 am
This is what I’m talking about, you have the fire Jessie, I love it. Keep it real and keep it raw. This is beautiful.
May the canopy of God’s love shadow you for the rest of your days.
April 28, 2013 at 11:06 am
I’ve heard it many times in this life how I have that fire… It’s good to know it’s still there and I pray it never dwindles!
“Keep it real and keep it raw…” it’s not always a popular approach, but I don’t know how else to be so thank you for that.
Many blessings to you on this day.
April 28, 2013 at 12:12 pm
Blessings,
You are correct, it isn’t a very popular approach, but then again you have to think about your audience, the masses.
Just like God, many people hate to hear the truth, but it is what sets them free. So be confident that you are doing something great in His eyes.
Many blessings to you on this day.
April 27, 2013 at 7:29 pm
Very powerful, felt so much emotions! God.Bless U
April 27, 2013 at 8:09 pm
Thank you PJ. It’s so good to see you. Many hugs, my friend!
April 28, 2013 at 6:00 pm
You very welcome Jessie, glad to finally have a chance to leave my mark. Sending hugs right back atcha. Many Blessings :) God Bless :)
April 27, 2013 at 7:21 pm
I hesitate to ‘Like’ as I feel much pain and anger. It must hurt. I pray you have support from your church and friends. In prayer for you always.Jesus sustains.
April 27, 2013 at 10:18 pm
Thank you Rick. God can heal anything and allows us to endure no more than we can handle. Yes, I have much support from friends and church family so I’m VERY grateful. It’s in an effort to bring awareness and to show how God can make good of evil every time. Be well Rick and many blessings :)
April 27, 2013 at 10:25 pm
I ‘Like’ that! He *can* heal anything. Our deep experience draws us closer to Him at times. I pray you keep pressing in to Him. It is my addictions and recoveries that have made my heart keen to His voice. Sometimes the very thing that once separates us from God, now draws us near. Thank you for your blessings, Jessie, be well too!
April 28, 2013 at 11:22 am
“Sometimes the very thing that once separates us from God, now draws us near.”
This is so very true, my brother and it’s exactly what I mean… beauty will rise from the ashes everytime once we learn to give it to God. It really is a marvelous and wonderful process although, not always easy :)